just how grey is this all but hey soon i can drown myself to fiction and cover it all so lets smile and eat figs until it hurts

you blind

but you know it's useless so you close the door swallow the key and walk away

or is it just that you're a coward?

maybe but I think it's too late anyways

so now this is just words that mean nothing to anybody but me

you mermaid

uni vei pois kyyneleet joten nyt voin puhua hymyilevistä asioista

tosin en osaa laittaa sanoiksi sitä puhdasta kauneutta missä silmiä voi pitää auki veden alla kivutta missä näet varpaasi koko kehosi ja sitä suutelevat kalat (se oli niin hassua! yleensä kalat pakenevat mutta ei, nämä tulevat ja pussaavat!)

"you we're there in the water you smiled and you looked like a fairy it was so beautiful"

enkä halunnut lähteä mihinkään,ensimmäistä kertaa pitkään aikaan

mutta oli pakko pyyhkiä kyyneleet jättää lämmin kallio vesiputouksen laulu

''maybe if I or it doesn't have to be me but somebody loves you enough you will become alive again"

he saw too much i didn't know i'm that transparent i easily forgot how fucked up i am i say to myself i'm just fine, maybe little sad sometimes but it's normal i'm okay i'm okay

be a bird

I wanted to say it's too late for me
I'm already so lost I don't know if I'm gonna be able to breath or feel ever again